Monday, December 25, 2006
MERRY CHRISTMAS!Spent my X'mas with 2 grps of people this year. Nope we didn't hit town. I had a family gathering a christmas gathering. It was the usual people but the fun we had was fab & compared to the rest of the years it had only been fun, funnier & fun FUNNIER! One of the examples was the musical chairs, we had this children round & also the adult. (I'm finally joinning the adults) & guess what! I CLAIM THE GLORY OF THE BIGGEST BUTT IN MY FAMILY!; I WON! haha! Around like a half an hour before X'mas, I left to meet my partner & soon headed down to her friend's (gough) place for a little friend friend gathering. Thank God I'm getting more comfortable there.. (:Played midnight bball, alcohol,warning from policemen. Nice.Oh YA.In a few more days time, I'll be in BKK with my family. Had been looking for a job for quite a while actually but still, I'm jobless. How useless! even B got a job & have been working there for nearly a week! (I can't let her be the sole breadwinner?)Dear Lord, hope you hear my prayers & hopfully I could get a job thats suits me shortly aft BKK trip. Amen.Alright, so besides that I've been staying at home rotting, checking out the stuffs I could do to make my house a better pl to live in. Hmm, actually I did get a job(telesales) but sitting in an office talking to different kinds of strangers all day long wasnt really my forte, plus I didn't really like the job. The people there was alright, but still maybe its me being choosy. I've learnt my lesson NOT to be to choosy in terms of looking for a job, as it nearly cost me my other part. Am determined to look for a job aft my BKK trip but maybe not at this moment even tho I'd really love to get a job & get started. No company would wanna hire someone new & aft a week he/she is asking for leave for family holiday? sigh. Well, at the same time I have a feeling that I never really thought I would be feeling; inferior. There she is working & there I am lazing ard serangoon, my house, doing nothing but ponding her to come back soon & play with me. I know how it feels but I 'd never thought my actions are really also affecting on others badly too.. I guess this time round I know & realised I need someone who I really can depend on. For as long as I know myself, my character, I'm someone who Iis dependant on someone when I feel that she's actually there & someone whos close & someone I could love.. To me, I guess its either I've love someone whose true, or someone whose just a fling.To others, they'll be afraid, mostly.Give me sometime,I'll get a job & we'll live happily.meanwhile, I still need you by my side...
