Tuesday, February 27, 2007
You can never be satisfied with life.3 seconds before, you were considering of getting a DS lite.10 minutes ago, you were thinking whether to get the red or the blue top.6 days ago, you wanted things to change, people to think in a different way.&
it goes on, and there will be more...Frustrations, agony, crying, no longer believeing, confused, stucked, jealousy.A circle that I'm going through, not knowing when it'll stop, not knowing when it'll make another circle from the start.Days pass,frustrations grows,agony became a mark,crying became a common emotion,images kept flashing,hearts keeps pending,body gets weaker,person gets torn over & over again.3 years ago, a phrase from a teacher who requested for a transfer, 'the truth hurts'. As far as someone knows the meaning, the person doesn't know the true feeling of going through.. This moment:Getting on great.Next moment:All torn up.The frustrations, the urge to scold anyone you see, to throw your temper at anything you see, to cry in the middle of no where, make a fuss outta every single thing, run as if its haunting, breathe hard when you feel your heart is failing, weep at the corner behind closed doors, shake your head and deceive yourself saying 'it can't be true', fall out with the ones that care most, think negative, tried all means to get those attention, lonely, fear of songs that brings back memories, being at places that memories are strong, approaching unknown people for their company, attemp to delete pictures that you know you'll regret, acting strong, putting up a mask, sitting beside your cell waiting for a call thats never coming, smile cause thinking that its a dream, screaming, blaming, pain, jealousy, why...It contradicts, everything done, everything said,thats cause I failed,we failed.
